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[Oct. 31st, 2006|08:20 pm] |
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well everyone i havent been on in for ever.....but check out my new song.... i dont have a name for it yet but still i like it....
take take away my world today
take take away my everything
you cannot see the things you do
please promise me one day you will prove
you keep on lying your bringing me down and you cannot see that it kills me
you keep on yelling your bringing me out and i will not stay here to see
(chorus)
take my one last dream
take my everything
tearing out the soul
soul in me
take away your pain
and your missery
i am sick of your
complaining
..............................................
come follow me to one last scene
this this is you your leaving me
have have not been the one you've said
now you have gone and fucked with my head
you keep on lying your bringing me down and you cannot see that it kills me
you keep on yelling your bringing me out and i will not stay here to see
(chorus)
take my one last dream
take my everything
tearing out the soul
soul in me
take away your pain
and your missery
i am sick of your
complaining
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take take away my world today
take take away my everything
take take away our world today
take take away your ball and your chain
you keep on lying your bringing me down and you cannot see that it kills me
to keep on yelling your bringing me out and i will not stay here to see
(chorus)
take my one last dream
take my everything
tearing out the soul
soul in me
take away your pain
and your missery
i am sick of your
complaining
well let me now what you think on here and myspace... cause i dont get on here too much..... thanx
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| (no subject) |
[Aug. 13th, 2006|12:31 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  mellow | ] |
| [ | music |
| | THE NEW SONG I HAVE BEEN WRITING | ] |
WELL FOR THOSE OF YOU HAVENT HEARD IM AM DOING REALLY FUCKING GOOD, I STILL WORK AT GUITAR CENTER, I DONT GET ON HERE TOO MUCH, BUT STILL. UMMM I HAVE MY OWN PLACE KINDA, ME AND ASHLEY ARE BACK TOGETHER AND LIVE TOGETHER, WE ARE GETTING READY TO FIND OUR OWN HOUSE SO WE CAN GET DOGS AND SO WE CAN GET RID OF BRANDON HE IS BUGGING THE HELL OUT OF ME. BUT YEAH ALL OF YOU HAVE STOPPED CALLING ME AND STUFF THATS NOT VERY NICE SO YOU SHOULD CALL ME AND TELL ME HOW YOU ARE DOING AND SHIT YOU KNOW. WELL TALK TO YOU ALL LATER |
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| (no subject) |
[Jan. 23rd, 2006|01:03 am] |
| [ | mood |
| |  crushed | ] |
GOD I AM REALLY PISSED SAD AND WORRIED RIGHT NOW THE ONLY THIG I HAVE TO SAY IS.....................HE'S GONNA DIE HE'S GONNA DIE HE'S GONNA DIE
HE IS GOING TO FUCKING DIE!!! |
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| (no subject) |
[Jan. 5th, 2006|02:17 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | calm | ] |
| [ | music |
| | tears of blood | ] |
well i have learned that there are people i thought i knew but i dont, people have told me things such as a person should only date me so i would havwe got over someone else... or i am only dating brit to get over someone else, now why would a person i have so much respect for say something like that????????????? well i am a little pissed off about that but yet i am still happy. |
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| (no subject) |
[Dec. 18th, 2005|11:21 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | very happy | ] |
| [ | music |
| | tears of blood-by me | ] |
I JUST HAD ONE OF THE MOST FUN NIGHTS EVER, ONE OF THE MOST BEAUTIFUL KISSES EVER, ONE OF THE MOST COLDEST HANDS ON MY BACK, AND A REALLY BEAUTIFUL PERSON WITH ME TO DO IT ALL. I SWEAR IT WAS SOO MUCH FUN MY HAIR IS JACKED I DONT CARE, MY CLOTHS ARE A LITTLE WET BUT STILL I AM REALLY HAPPY, WELL I AM OFF TO CONTINUE MY HAPPINESS.... SEE YOU ALL. |
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| (no subject) |
[Dec. 14th, 2005|10:54 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | happy | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Tears of Blood-by me | ] |
hey well today i got up enough courage and asked out Brit, that went well if i do say so myself. i am happy now scared but happy. im not scared for me and brit but for me and everybody i know, because i turn 18 in 2 months exactly and i am signing up for the army reserve or the navy reserv or yeah somewhat of that sort, i am doing this because i need a future, and if you seen my mid term today it looked like this G.P.A 0.000 yeah im that fucked, so i hope to have a future and live a good life, and to bring this up when im alone i find that i drive myself insane at alot of moments like i feel like im on druggs literally i see things hear things smell things, yeah i scare myself. but now i think that will get alot better, well i guess i hope it does. well talk to you all later. |
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| (no subject) |
[Dec. 7th, 2005|11:26 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | depressed | ] |
| [ | music |
| | tears of blood | ] |
well i dont know what to sya i am dissapointed in so many people these days they are so much better then what they are showing..........so i just dont know what to say.and also i am dissapointed in myself so dont worry everybody. |
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| (no subject) |
[Dec. 4th, 2005|07:21 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  annoyed | ] |
well that relationship didnt last long, well who cares mabe i will find someone down here doubt it because josh is around but still mabe just mabe theres a chance. |
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| (no subject) |
[Dec. 1st, 2005|09:58 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | worried | ] |
| [ | music |
| | tears of blood---- by me | ] |
well things have changed in the past couple of days, i have somewhat liked this girl haily for a while and as we talked it grew and then we met and it grew even more, and now we are going out, the only downfall is she lives in ogden but we said we would try to make this work and if it didnt we will go back to being friends, and im not too sure exactly what i want to happen out of it all but i just hope things turn out okay in the end. i was really trying to get with someone but i dont think i was what they wanted so i went with my other feeling and im okay right now and thats progress i havent been too happy for like the past week and a half so hopefully i can work my way back up there. well i am off now see ya guys later. |
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| (no subject) |
[Nov. 20th, 2005|08:29 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | depressed | ] |
| [ | music |
| | NOTHING | ] |
WELL IM GOING TO SAY EXACTLY WHAT IM FEELING AND HAVE FELT FOR A WHILE, REALLY IM NOT TOO HAPPY THERE A COUPLE HAPPY DAYS THAT I HAVE BUT YET I AM STILL JUST A BIG BLOB OF DEPRESSION I TRY SO HARD TO BE HAPPY AND MAKE MY FRIENDS AND FAMILY HAPPY I MEAN IT SEEMS THAT I MAKE MY FRIENDS AND FAMILY HAPPY BUT I NEVER MAKE MYSELF HAPPY. I MEAN TO MYSELF I AM NOT ANYTHING I HAVE NO JOB, FUCK UP IN SCHOOL, NO GF, NO BAND, NOTHING REALLY I HAVE MY FRIENDS, I HAVE A COUPLE OF THEM BUT YET I ONLY SEEM TO HANG OUT WITH ONE. I REALLY LIKE ONE PERSON, IM PRETTY SURE EVERYONE GOES THROUGH THAT, I GUESS WHAT IM TRYING TO SAY IS NOTHING SO NEVERMIND, I HAVE NEVER BEEN ABLE TO TALK ABOUT THESE THIONGS REALLY THIS IS THE MOST PROGRESS I HAVE EVER MADE BUT IM OFF NOW SO ILL TALK TO YOU GUYS LATER. |
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| (no subject) |
[Nov. 13th, 2005|12:33 am] |
| [ | mood |
| |  happy/tired | ] |
| [ | music |
| | none | ] |
Well i am pdoing pretty good right now im tired but im doing good i have been making demos and handing them out i have handed out prolly about 110 thats pretty good i guess..... but today i got to go to a show with kort dave chae cj and kristi, it was fun i ran and did a sXe kick and kicked this sXe kid right in his head, i also got steped on when i fell they stepped right on my lip it was bleeding kinda alot, but then scotty and cassey left with chaes keys and they went swimming and stuff and that caused some drama but then me chae and kristi all went to chae's house and hung out i got us chicken nuggets and we watched grease, it was pretty fun kristi ended up leaving and then chae fell asleep so i am home now. but the coolest thing is that the person i have liked for a while likes me back i hope she trusts me and knows that i would never be like her ex and will treat her will every bit of respect i have, even if we arent going out i will still try my best to keep her happy. i wouldnt want to bug her or have her think im not carig or something so i hope i can be around just as much as she wants me around cause it would suck to have her get sick of me, but im gonna change the subject.......hmmmmmmm........ never mind im tired so good night everybody and good morning for some. |
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| (no subject) |
[Nov. 5th, 2005|02:35 am] |
| [ | mood |
| | sad/depressed/pissed off | ] |
| [ | music |
| | was it because of me-by me its the song thats up there | ] |
WELL ONCE AGAIN I AM EXTREMLY DOWN AND DEPRESSED,
MABE SOMEONE WILL NOTICE WHAT THIS SONG MEANS I WROTE IT BY THE WAY
WHERE HAVE YOU GONE
WHAT HAVE I DONE
WHAT HAVE I SAID
TO MAKE YOU RUN
WILL YOU RETURN
RETURN TO ME
BEFORE I DIE
IN MISARY(miss spelled srry)
corus
PLEASE
RETURN
TO
ME
WHEN WILL YOU
SEE THAT ALL I AM
TRYING TO DO
IS HELP YOU
WHEN WILL YOU BE
HERE FOR ME TO
WHEN WILL YOU SEE
ALL I WANT
IS FOR US TO
GO BACK TO LIKE
WE USED TO
BEFORE YOU LEFT
WHEN WILL YOU
BE HERE FOR ME
corus
PLEASE
RETURN
TO
ME
WHERE HAVE YOU GONE
WHAT HAVE I DONE
WHAT HAVE I SAID
TO MAKE TO RUN
WILL YOU RETURN
RETURN TO ME
BEFORE I DIE
IN MISARY(once again miss spelled)
PLEASE........RETURN.........TO.............ME.............................
JUST SO EVERYONE KNOWS I HAVE ALWAYS BEEN THERE AS A FRIEND FOR YOU ITS JUST IM SICK OF PEOPLE ALWAYS PRETENDING TO CARE ONLY AFTER THEY HAVE CAUSED DAMMAGE LIKE MADE YOU SAD OR MAD OR DEPRESSED THEN SOME HOW OH WAIT I DONT WANT THEM TO HATE ME MABE ILL PRETEND LIKE I CARE AGAIN AND THEY WILL FALL FOR ME AGAIN THEN NEXT WEEK WE WILL PLAY THIS SHIT AGAIN.............GOD JUST......FUCK OFF!!! LEAVE PEOPLES FEELINGS ALONE IF YOU CARED YOU WOULD BE IN THIS SPOT RIGHT NOW YOU WOULDNT BE BATTLING ON WHO THE FUCK YOU WANTED TO BE WITH YOU WOULD KNOW AND KNOW THATS THE ONLY PERSON WHO IS GOING TO MAKE YOU FEEL THE WAY YOU WANT TO FEEL AND STOP PRETENDING YOU ARE BEING SOMETHING YOUR NOT WICH IS............FUCKING THERE!!! WELL TO ALL OF YOU WHO ARE TRUE AND FAITHFUL TO YOUR FRIENDS, AMANDA, KORT,CHEA,KRISTI,BOB,BILLIE,AND CHELTS YOU GUYS KNOW I LOVE AND CARE ABOUT YOU ALL BUT TO THE OTHERS WHAT THE FUCK IS YOUR PROBLEMS???? WELL ALRIGHT IM GONNA GET ME SOME FUCKING SLEEP MABE SO GOOD FUCKING NIGHT!!!
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| (no subject) |
[Nov. 4th, 2005|12:09 am] |
| [ | mood |
| | depressed | ] |
| [ | music |
| | NONE | ] |
GOD I AM SO DOWN AND DEPRESSED RIGHT NOW!!!
!!!FUCK!!!
GOD I FEEL LIKE A PUNCHING BAG IT ALWAYS GETS HIT BUT NEVER GETS A TURN! THIS IS HOW I FEEL I WAS TALKING TO SOME PEOPLE AND THEY ASKED ME WHAT WAS WRONG AND THIS IS WHAT CAME OUT.........
I USED TO CUT.. I USED SCREAM
I USED TO BLEED EVEV IN MY DREAMS
THE BLADE SO CLOSE MY BEST FRIEND
ALL I EVER WANTED WAS TO LOVE AGAIN.
THIS WAS THE NEXT THING I SAID
I WANT TO CARE I WANT TO LOVE
I WANT TO SEE HROUGH YOUR BLOOD
WHAT HAVE YOU DONE OR WAS IT ME
ALL I WANT IS FOR YOU TO SEE
SEE MY HEART SEE MY LOVE
SEE ALL OF THE THINGS I HAVE BUILT UP
THIS IS YOU THIS IS ME
NOW CANT WE BE
EVER SO FUCKING HAPPY.
AMANDA REMEMBER HOW YOU SAID IT HURTS YOU WHEN MALLORY TALKS ABOUT MATT HOW DO YOU THINK I FEEL WHEN YOU TALK ABOUT HER? IM NOT TRYING TO BE RUDE, I JUST WANT YOU TO KNOW THAT I AM HERE RIGHT IN FRONT OF YOUR FACE, I HAVE NEVER HURT YOU NEVER LEFT YOU HAVE ALWAY CARED LOVED AND TOOK CARE OF YOUSO PLEASE JUST KNOW IM HERE.
BUT THATS NOT ALL THATS BUGGING ME I DONT EVEN KNOW WHAT IS ALL BUGGING ME I JUST CAN TELL I HAVE SO MUCH BUILT UP INSIDE OF ME AND I JUST WANT IT TO LEAVE. |
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[Oct. 30th, 2005|10:24 am] |
| [ | mood |
| | sad | ] |
| [ | music |
| | WITH ONE LAST BEAT= BY ME | ] |
HEY EVERY BODY, I DONT FEEL TOO GOOD RIGHT NOW, IM NOT SICK OR ANYTHING IM JUST NOT HAPPY. LAST NIGHT WAS REALLY DRAMATIC AND IT MADE ME FEEL REALLY PISSED, AND SAD. ALL I WANT TO DO IS BE THERE FOR PEOPLE WHEN THEY ARE FEELING DOWN BUT YET I WOULD REALLY LIKE IT IF THEY WOULD BE HAPPY, PEOPLE NEED TO SEE WHAT IS CAUSING MOST OF THEIR PROBLEMS AND JUST GET RID OF IT LET IT GO AND NEVER LOOK BACK. I MEAN NOT TO MAKE ANYONE FEEL BAD BUT I WAS TOLD LAST NIGHT THAT I HAVE NEVER BEEN THERE WHEN SOMEONE NEEDED ME AND IM AS TEMPORARY AS EVERYONE ELSE, BUT YET I HAVE THOUGHT I WAS THERE AND HERE WHEN ANY ONE OF MY FRIENDS HAVE NEEDED ME SO I GUESS I HAVE JUST BEEN TELLING MYSELF ONE BIG FUCKING LIE. I NEVER THOUGHT SOMEONE TELLING YOU YOU HAVE NOT BEEN THERE OR HELPED OR AM THERE WHEN THEY NEED YOU COULD HURT SO BAD BUT I GUESS NOW I KNOW I JUST HOPE THINGS WILL GET BETTER OR IM GOING TO LOSE ALL OF THE THINGS I HAVE AND START NEW I HAVE TRIED SO HARD AND YET IT DOESNT SEEM TO BE HELPING ANYBODY SOMETIMES I GET A THANK YOU FOR HELPING PEOPLE AND THATS BEEN AS HAPPY AS THINGS GET LATELY NOBODY REALLY CARES I GUESS IM LIKE A TEENAGE PHSYCYOTRIST, PEOPLE LIKE ME TO TRY TO HELP SOMETIMES BUT I DONT THINK THEY REALLY CARE WHAT I HAVE TO SAY. THE ONLY TIME SOMEONE LIKES THEIR PHSYCYOTRIST IS WHEN THEY ARE GIVING THEM A GOOD ENOUGH DRUG TO NOT REALISE WHAT THEIR FUCKING PROBLEMS ARE, THEN THE PERSON AND THEIR DOCTOR BECOME BEST FRIENDS BUT ONLY WHEN ITS TIME FOR A RE-FILL BUT WHO CARES IF THIS IS WHAT I AM THEN MABE I SHOULD JUST NOT EVEN THINK ABOUT IT AND JUST KEEP ON BEING ME. WELL IM GOING TO GO SO SEE YA. |
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| (no subject) |
[Oct. 25th, 2005|11:41 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | sleepy but good | ] |
| [ | music |
| | with one last beat = by me | ] |
Hello everybody, today was a pretty good day. Amanda asked me if i wanted to go to the park with her again so we went down there and we talked about alot of stuff it was good idk about her but i think we needed that talk, what do you think amanda? Well when you read this. but yeah then we went to smiths and walked around and amanda got free cookies and i stole a HIM sticker and then we drove around for a minute and then we went to her house and ate hot pockets and played guitar, it was fun. she is getting really good at the guitar if she keeps practicing she can really get good. but yeah im tired and need some sleep so ill talk to you all later. |
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| (no subject) |
[Oct. 17th, 2005|10:13 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | i guess i feel pretty good | ] |
| [ | music |
| | I wont see you tonight pt. 1 - Avenged Sevenfold | ] |
GOD I WANT TO FUCKING DIE!!!....................................................
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J/K im not fucking stupid i like the way my life is going right now other then my car being fucking stupid today. but yeah everything is going good other then i want to be in a band sooo bad fuck fuck fuck fucking piece of fuck!!!!! well yeah srry im kinda sleepy and hyper at the same time. well talk to all laters. |
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| (no subject) |
[Oct. 2nd, 2005|11:43 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | alright | ] |
| [ | music |
| | aiden | ] |
so yeah i have started to hang out with a new person she goes to my school and her name is Koryn she is fucking awsome i swear she is one of the coolest people i know, me her josh k.c and kristi all hung out it was alot of fun, she got to hear me jam in the basement to my new song i hope she liked it i want everybody to like it. it was weird because she is one of the only people i have never like met at first but started to like only by her personality then we met and it made it alot cooler, but yeah i met her on myspace, but thats about all thats been going on ,and also me josh k.c and randy all went down to the store and were putting on masks it was soooooo much fun if you have myspace and im your friend you should go look at the pics it was really fun. |
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| (no subject) |
[Sep. 26th, 2005|01:35 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | PISSED OFF | ] |
| [ | music |
| | TRIVIUM | ] |
ONCE AGIAN I COULD CARE LESS WHO THE FUCK PEOPLE DATE, I DONT CARE THAT MANDA AND MALLORY ARE GOING OUT I AM OVER ALL OF THAT I WAS JUST SAYING SOMEONE DONT BREAK UP WITH SOMEONE FOR SOMEONE ELSE IF THEY REALLY DO LOVE THEM AND THEN COME BACK FEELING STUPID YEAH WE BROKE UP BUT IT WASNT CAUSE OF SOMEBODY ELSE, BUT ONCE AGAIN THIS ISNT BECAUSE OF THAT I LIKE SOMEBODY ANYWAYS I KNOW I DONT HAVE A CHANCE BUT STILL. SO STOP THINKING IM GETTING MAD OVER YOU NOT DATEING ME BECAUSE NOW I COULD CARE LESS WHAT HAPPENS. |
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